YuseYusof
I ADMIRE YOU


When you are fascinated by the unspoken aura, some emotions can be channelled in any medium just like how Beethoven had expressed his undying secret love - Lugwig.
Beethoven (1770-1827), one of history's most famous and mysterious composers died at the age of 57 with one great secret. Upon his death, a love letter was found among his possessions. It was written to an unknown woman who Beethoven simply called his *Immortal Beloved.*





The world may never put a face with this mysterious woman or know the circumstances of their affair and his letters are all that is left of a love as intensely passionate as the music for which Beethoven became famous. Compositions such as the Moonlight Sonata as well as Beethoven's many symphonies express eloquently the tragedy of a relationship never publicly realized.

What About Mine?

I’ve been following my secret admire stories recently. I was amused by his carefree and colourful life. Everyone has issues but he is a kind of man with ‘No Worries’ for everything which I’ve seen the same character as Asher Book in the Fame Movie I love the way he sees life and expresses it via pictures and words. I know, I shouldn’t take any of his words and jokes as a flame but he is too good to be true. Sometimes, I should thank to Allah for opening his heart to ask how I am doing so far and give a sudden ‘hello’ out of blue. To me, he is like a distance stars which very far to be reached out but to adore him is something that I would fly to the moon and back.



Sometimes, I wonder where the love is and do I fit in? Many chances gone by, it makes me so in confusing why it was so hard to make believing out there on my own. In other words, everyone keeps surviving for love and family. However, there are people keep rejecting love for better future . Rumour has it, don’t hate the player but hate the game. But does any woman know what a Casanova needs and wants? He is one of immature alpha male who is looking for stable platform to rule his own potentials. So, don’t blame him if he couldn’t stay awake for catching your sweet surrender. The begging mode is not the game for a mature alpha. Be understanding to the off soil minded or nothing at all.

From my naked eyes, he is very ‘expensive’ in the outside with Prada male’s outfit. I didn’t get much time to get to know him more but I think its better that way. I really love what I feel about him now which very positive and ‘smell good’.. Life is about appreciating people who treat us good and sharing the happiness together. Don’t spoil it with betrayal and silence because it’s not worthwhile unless it involves pride and family. In life, sometimes we meet a lot of people, who are very promising but sometimes they never progress fast from that promising level.

In my mind, there are people who will be loved unconditionally but there are people who have to pursue other option like keep seeking the right person until the last breath and hoping for the ultimate destiny to come.


A cute song about HOPE

“There is somebody I am longing to see,
I hope that he turns out to be someone who’ll watch over me,
I am a little lamb, who’s lost in the wood,
I know I could always be good , to one who’ll watch over me.
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YuseYusof
“ I am big big girl, In the big big world.....”


This is the 28th birthday of mine, and thinks I am still a young woman. Anyhow, when I go out..there are many kids call me untie, so I have to accept that I am not longer a young woman perhaps a grown woman will be much acceptabled by my heart.
It is 2.20pm and I am having a cup of Starbucks’s hot chocolate which already cold. I’ve been here since 11.30am and I am very amused and touched by a lot of Birthday’s smses, phone calls and Facebook’s speeches today. Indeed, what a special day! The sun is not so bright and it makes the view of KLCC’s huge fountain so peaceful and partly cloudy. I love this kind of weather so much. No one is talking to me but my laptop and my heart. The best part at the Starbucks now is they are playing one of my oldies favourite ‘AT LAST’. Gosh, it triggers me more in the mood of a GROWN WOMAN. Hell Yeah! Baby!


I am not going to talk about what I don’t have but WHAT I WANT TO HAVE for this YEAR? I’ve been strictly single almost a year now and so far I have learnt ton of life lessons about love, life and friendship. I am grateful to ALLAH for giving me such experience where making me wiser in handling life issues and happy all over again.

To be frank, special for my birthday I have add on another one things into my wish list. I am very positive for it because I’ve been thinking day and night.

1) I will work my best for flying as I mentioned earlier blogs.
2) I want have a man of my life.


Last time, I was very choosy and I could almost list down the criteria of man that I was looking for. Unfortunately, I didn’t make it but the worst thing was I got someone which totally out of the list then broke my heart into pieces very bad eventually. Speaking about this, I think it is portraying the clear picture by the law of attraction. You must focus what you want otherwise you might be getting a trash or totally out of demand. Finally, now I am drawing a line in finding a soulmate and it’s definitely better left unsaid here. Let it be my ultimate secret with one clue:: Similarities. YES! No way for Bad Romance..i dont need a psycho with a vertical stick! Even I'm a die hard fan for Lady Gaga but i think her idea for this song is crap! hahahahahaha BIG CRAP!




Tonight must be fun. My friends will be celebrating me at Barsavanth, Mont Kiara. I am glad that Yati is coming with a cheese cake. I love cheese cake very much even it will affect my migraine but who cares? Its My bloody Birthday’s Night!
I cant wait to be there soon! Happy Birthday Yusmaliza!

In loving memory of : Evy,Ae,Abby,Pae,Hidayah& Zach.
Hope someday somewhere we will meet again!
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YuseYusof
“Yang Kurik Kundi, Yang Merah Saga,
Baik Budi Indahnya Bahasa , Pantun Lama Jadi Kiasannya”.

The ‘Pantun’ above is really synonym to the Malay’s culture which also can be heard on Datuk Siti Nurhaliza’s song ‘ Kurik Kundi’. It is reflecting with my pitiful incident that I had yesterday. Yes, I am so in with love 2010 because my karma on 2009 was very bad so I’m hoping it would be much different this year. In conjunction of 2010’s post celebration some sacrifices need to be done. I thought, I’ve started the 2010 very well but I have to face the ‘FINANCIAL’ redemption. Silly me, I don’t know what is going to happen next but I hope it will the finale.



Poor my car, I need to start to pamper and name it by today. The law of attraction is saying that when you are caring and loving one thing or anything so much, you will be protected by the aura in keeping it. All senses in life will notice if we want it or lose it. So be extra careful when you wish on something. True enough, I intended to put my car at The Car Rental Station during my flying years. Anyhow, it triggers something unacceptable which burdened my shoulder, mind and emotions. Maybe, my aura is really ready to let go the car. No, It won’t stop me from thinking 2010 is the fortune year for me. Absolutely NO! Hell NO! NO WAY! Definitely NO!

How many times more I have to deal a problem like this?


I AM THE CAPTAIN FOR MY LIFE!!!
Since my parents have gone, I always believed that someone would help me at anytime and anywhere. From my believe again, Allah won’t let me fall to down under because he took away my parents at my early life. I know, Allah will always take care of me and brings good people to ease my struggling life.
Inside, I will never fail to pray to those people whom have helped me .I pray that they will always get the best fortune and eternity happiness because they have helped a ‘Tree without leaves” like me.




Yes, this is going to be my last failure and I will make sure it will be the last thing happen to my car. I know, I could protect all my belongings if I am really care about them. Seriously, there will be no one will take them away and scratch my 2010’s happiness ‘diary’. NO MORE!

No stranger is trusted!

There were two men whom pretending to help me out from the case but surprisingly I got ‘backstabbed’ by them. First man was ‘I Will Be By Your Side’ , the second man was ‘Great Pretender’ and the third one was Romeo Must Die. Those were good people in my eyes but the next thing I knew ‘they were cheating on me’ indirectly and emotionally. Acted like a hero but eventually reacted less than the perfect strangers. Obviously, talk is cheap. All have been answered on one day and one night of 6th January 2010. Thank you for the hypocrite’s men! I am not going to do anything and maybe a total ignore to all of you. You guys will never deserve my good treat anymore. Someday, Allah will treat you as same as mine. Don’t worry Fellas, you will not get away from it.

Perfect Angel from the Sky!

‘Rambut sama hitam, hati lain lain’. The proverb is really captures my heart because I’ve seen the real picture of it. Alhamdulilla, My lovely Bos ‘ Mr. Tan’ has a gut to pull me out from the case fully hearted. I should be very lucky and grateful because Allah had sent a perfect male angel to my helpless life. I shall remember his efforts until the day I die. He is simply a life saver. I hope Allah will grant him more happiness and love in his life even we are in the different religious. Correctly, life is about merry go round. He will be getting something magical due to helping me. I am guaranteeing that. Allah is great.

Anyhow, those people who have shown genuine sympathy to my case perhaps I should noble your words with pride. At least, you have given moral support even not by action. I can tell your sincerity and thank you so much with the phone calls.To be frank, my siblings haven’t known my case until now.

I am simply the great survivor!
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