YuseYusof
To whom it may concern:

It might be a sorry song for liars but a song can never be exchanged for a confession because the truth hurts. For the sake of happiness, lets sacrifice it. Life would be more meaningful if we knew the most important part in love.




Everyone makes mistakes from time to time. Sometimes it pays to come clean, but often it can lead to more problems than it solves. Not only are such decisions difficult to make, but given the nature of the problem, it is often hard to discuss your options with others.

The most painful and hurtful thing you can do to someone doesn't necessarily involve:- deception; it usually involves telling the truth. Typically, the best way to hurt a romantic partner is by being completely honest - tell a lover something that he or she does not want to hear. Lovers often lie to each other about many types of issues, issues which are common whenever two people get close, but issues which cannot be easily resolved through discussion Again, as someone's looks fade, what's the point of being brutally honest about it? And we are happier and feel closer to our romantic partners when we do not have to acknowledge such painful, hurtful truths.

In fact, we like it when our lover hide unpleasant facts from us. As long as we are not aware that our partners are hiding things, ignorance can be blissful.


On the other hand, when we really want to hurt someone, we often say what we really think. Anyone who has been involved in a divorced knows first-hand how damaging the truth can be. When people are no longer concerned about keeping a relationship intact, the truth comes out fast and furious and it stings.
While telling the truth in a romantic relationship can often lead to a lot of hurt, pain, and suffering - deception is not a luxury, sometimes lying is absolutely necessary.

Some says, fix it before too late but Mr. Hitler is seemed not so support to that idea. To him, if you wanted to lie, make it hugely until people make it as a believing. He was brave enough to sustain the secret to tarnish the Jewish’s population in Germany back in 1938. Wish I was the Hitler because everyone will listen to me without objection and resentment.

In reality, no one could stand to hear everything. And deception is often required because it allows people to share with lives with each other while avoiding difficult issues which cannot always be discussed away.
Make no mistake about it, telling the truth is necessary in a close relationship. But, always telling the truth often leads to more problems than good.


“Make the lie big, make it simple, keep saying it, and eventually they will believe it” - Hitler



THE END.

P/s: I am deeply sorry.
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YuseYusof
"We may run, walk, stumble, drive, or fly, but let us never lost sight of the reason for the journey, or miss a chance to see a rainbow on the way - Pricess Diana".

Life is always full of challenging journeys. Some are meant to be amazing but it is also can bring a heartbreaking to us. Everyone has their own way in healing the soul and the busy mind. I am not saying I am very good at adventurous things but I took my chances last year by taking a solo backpacking to New Zealand. I know the ending story to that journey has covered by drama but deep inside I’ve never regret for every an each step I’ve made. Some people may think I was selfish but I think they should’ve learnt on how to understand more a friend who was so in the pain. The way of how I was doing it could be very unbelievable but at least I had a gut to recover and appreciate my own life. Yes, Elizabeth Gilbert is inspired me to do that - author of Eat Pray Love. She has found her love and soul again by taking a long journey. She has started it from Italy, India then Indonesia. She became happier ever since!



She took a long way and so much time to heal up but it ended worthwhile. Each country she went has it best lesson to be learnt by her .It captured me to read it again and again. No wonder, Oprah Winfrey has honoured her book. It's one of the option way to motivate people to get out from the worst break up's trauma and make a huge change. Anyhow, Thank you for Suhaimi for Qantas's flight tickets .It was the most expensive birthday’s gift I ever had in my entire life. The journey was brilliant to me. Thank you so much dude!

Like my recent long holidays, it were gone not too bad. The Chinese New Year’s holiday is one of the festive that always been waiting by all Malaysians. I am blessed that I have friends who are willing to take me for a short notice’s vacation. I am very thankful to the pretty friends of mine ‘ Jaja & Fara’. Despite of giving our respect to Fara’s brother ‘ Tahlil’ who died recently in Kuantan . We also had so much fun at the most SENSATIONAL BEACH in Pahang ‘ Telok Cempedak’. Yes, it was the unforgettable TRICK made by Jaja. Seriously, I was dying to go to the Cherating’s beach but due to some arrangements by Jaja, we decided to linger only at one stop which was Kuantan. Pity me! But on top of that, I’d experienced the remarkable treats that cooked by Fara’s mother then I could see how caring Jaja and Fara towards myself. Jaja was really the sweetest one.

Though the journey wasn’t a 100% vacation but it touched my memory's box. The last time I had such vacation when I was 24 years old. I still remember it clearly where Farahi and Evy were singing the songs by V.E all along the route and I was damn delighted by the friendship’s value they have shown to me. Anyhow, it now has become part of my young hood’s memories. I hope they will never forget me especially that journey. I know, it must been love for 3 of us but it’s over now.

As I said before, this year resolution is to fulfil my own needs. Yes, one of it has realised during the holiday too. My feet are swept off by Amy. Like the old saying, love will come when you least expect it. That is how the story between me and Amy has grown. True enough, I am like the rest of women in town. I had the worst break up a year ago. Then when I first met Amy, It was a funny flirty story. There were unspoken moments where I saw him like the male version of me. I tried to talk to him closely and met his friends. In the end, love happens! He is so fun to be with!

Maybe, I and Amy should give a special treat to Neo Fahmi and Jana. They are the bridges for me to meet Amy. I hope this time will be the best ending. I’ve been waiting for a man like him after Shah. I kept harbouring with the wrong men until I've lost who I am. I was thinking perhaps I would be not getting the same loving feeling that I used to have with Shah. Yes, I was 15 years old but it was truly awesome when I knew someone loved me very sincerely for the very first time .The verdict, I didn’t manage to sustain the courtship so I’ve lost him for good. Nevertheless, I know he is happy now living in Middle East ( Cairo) with 2 daughters and a pretty wife. He is a good man in my eyes. He taught me a lot about appreciation when he walked away from my life. Yes, life is about a box of chocolates, you will never know what you are going get.

Alright friends, I have to wrap up now. I hope all of you will pray for me on this newly courtship. Please say to my face loudly “Yus, you’re deserve this so much! Be Happy! Be Happy!” In other words, Allah is great! YEAY! YEAY! YEAY!

To My Amy,
U, I love you more each and every day! Wishing the years ahead with Happy Memories!
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A little scary to admit it but to have it is something that I’ve been expecting for a year ago. It started from a happening night then crossed to the blooming days. Some memories will be replaced by this unspoken connection. I love with the way he sees in me and should call it as acknowledgement. I was busy admiring others but it took two weekends to shine two hearts in speaking the same language. Life is fair, not all people hate us. I am grateful.

Last night was amazing but things were still in the level of introduction. The one and only thing I liked about him was the spontaneous. Perhaps, I could elaborate him as “ the opposite of boring”. I felt his senses like the night in the forest and like a rose in a dessert where we were supposed to appreciate the beauty of them. Only two weekends again, he scored my board with his cool personality excellently. Yes, I didn’t need his extra money and luxury treats to rule my night and bring back my good feelings about man. It was a genuine feeling which very seldom for me to feel it with anybody else. I didn’t need the list to check on him because my experience taught me so. What can I say more on this, HE SCORED! More than Manchester United has scored during the match with Arsenal recently. Damn, hate to say the Manchester’s stuff actually!

Whatever it is, only a wish I have in my mind - Hope he is sincere. Here is a song for you Mr. Engineer :)



To be honest, I have a lot more to be shared with him and many things still untold. I have to find the right time so that I could tell him everything. At the meantime, I have to work hard so a secret will no longer a secret. I have to work my ass to make it into reality. If you happened to read this, I hope you will always have a feeling to accept for who I am inside. If you don’t, I am afraid you will be regretted eventually.
You must expect the worst!

Anyhow, his accompany was a temporary shelter for my sweet escape from the hassles and hazards. I had terrible humiliation few days ago and he pressed the stop button to it from kept lingering in my emotions indirectly. All people have problems and not everyone is sincere to give a hand. The worst case is there are culprit try to steal the unforgiving limelight by influenced those pretty helpers with false accusations. In the end, the one who seek for the help has to face the circumstances and stand up for the right towards the culprits’ bad intention. Grow up people! We are living in the civilised country; try not to assume all people will take your accusations easily like a dummy for CPR training. People have pride, respect that. If you were not sure about one thing, better don’t say a word or try to communicate to the right person for finding the truth. Assumption is HURTFUL.

After what had happened in my life, these days I became tough and sometimes very difficult to be manipulated. I’ve lost who I was just because of a ONE SHORTY from Taman Desa. Yes, my heart was full of hatred and I kept hurt people who were really wanted to see my wrong doings. I kept doing it with the hope they would be entertained. Instead of giving them such entertainment, I am satisfied also because I could see how forgetful they are towards my devotion to the friendship those days.


I had helped some of them to be a better a person but it could never be counted. To those culprits, I am done with all of you and I forgave you either. Whatever happening to me right now is none of your business and I have to do things just for the sake of surviving. Love isn’t with us anymore. If I took almost a year to let go all of you, so why can you? Our business is done and we are no longer as we used to be. Everything has said and done. I am creating my new life now with my own so why it so hard for you to respect it?

Wahai kamu sekalian,
Apa lagi yang tak puas hati ni? Kalau manusia mari cite sikit depan muka aku. Naik benci lak aku duk dengar sekawan anging menyalak- nyalak ni. Kalau lapar, aku leh kasi makan. Dah ar sesetengah itu dah macam tak ubah seperti anjing yang dilepaskan dari tersepit.Pastu duk datang balik menyalak kat belakang- belakang aku. Psycho ke apa? Ni dah tulis dalam bahasa melayu, kalau menyalak gak lagi, LANTOKLAH! HANTAM SAJALAH LABU.


" Memfitnah itu sama dosanya dengan membunuh"
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